What a hard lesson for anyone to learn - but to have to learn it at such a young age must have been terribly painful. But I agree with Glenn, that you have to go through the storm in order to become a better person - I think Glenn is a testament to God's undying love and forgiveness - no matter how far and how low you have sunk in your life "redemption, LOVE & forgiveness" will always be yours, you just have to be ready and accepting when it is offered.